His walk and His life

2010-09-17T18:24:00.000-07:00

moved my blog to a new site

darylelliott.wordpress.com

2009-10-06T08:42:00.000-07:00

For the longest time, praise songs has never fail to cheer me up, like everytime i'm down, i will always turn on an emo song, but for the record, i put my ipod on shuffle mode, so somehow, a praise song will strat playing.
Praises are always so wonderful and powerful. although it was not from my heart, it first change my heart before changing me into a praising warrior. It is how God change most of us ( or at least all of us). He first touch and moved our heart, before we come to decide that we want that life with Jesus. Well, Jesus is always awesome, always love Him and always praising Him.

2009-09-30T08:54:00.000-07:00

I blog this so that i can break the curse, the curse of stop blogging after breaking into new height.

Well currently hyped up for CIP, but at the same time not really hyped up coz i do it b4 for and kinda know what to expect. but at the same time, expectations are really nothing for god to achieve and He always over-achieve it.

super busy this week, rock kidz children day deco, sep birthdays and some sch work and some personal stuff. sometimes i feel like just stop doing anything and just go for holiday, can't take the pace of how the world is going, its too stressful. it reminds me of one of the sermon i listen from another pastor from dunno where where he said that God created us at horse walking speed, but the world is making us move at a horse running speed. and thats where stress comes in.

2009-09-28T05:24:00.000-07:00

yeah, my 40th blog entry. it may not mean something to you guys but i meant a lot for me, its like i have never gone past 20 for all my other blogs and here i am at my 40th blog entry.

its been a week since i came back from genting and i did not blog since then. really want to blog, but was too busy. to sum yup my experience in genting, it was on of the worst trip ever and the coldest i've ever experienced. 15 degrees was like the highest, when the sun was out, i saw it when down to 13, and who know what degree when it was raining. well because of public holiday, it was super packed. even had to queue for 1hr just for a rollercoster ride. and those not so famous rides, it took like abt 30min. well shopped for only like an 1hr out of the 3 days and didn't get much for myself, just a shirt.

Yesterday, i felt so refreshed. was so happy to be back in the hse of God. 2 weeks but it felt like months. It was kinda in the flow with yesterday message as God recently told me that he wanted to restore all that i had lost, and yesterday message was a confirmation as i did not really believe it when God told it to me Himself. Glad to see everyone again and yup, wanna spend time with you guys more, missed you all so much!!!!

2009-09-18T10:30:00.000-07:00

I'm gonna use this blog entry to sum up everything that has happen this week.

Spiritually, it has been a real dry week, no matter how i tried praying in the spirit, or tried talking to God, i just seem to be being totally drained up from the inside out. And going to genting in probably 8hrs, how i really wish i had a working MP3 player that i can upload all my sermons and fill myself up when i'm gonna miss 2 power-packed service which i know will fill me up.

The highlight of the week was on wed, yup its sentosa!!! It fun in the sun, well not including the final part when it rained. In terms of how much fun i had, i would rate it at only 6/10. the fun was there, but not really in terms of the playing of games, it was just pure fun that we could have at anytime and anywhere. and with so many ppl that could not come at the last minute, really destroy the plan for the whole outing, a bonding session through fun and games.

lastly, I WANT TO GO SEE THE DEAD SEA SCROLL!!!! omg, the exhibit ends this sunday and i do not have the chance to go see, and the cg is going to see it while i am in genting. to be honest, i would give up genting to go see the dead sea scroll. but because its family time which i would not trade it for anything. holding on to the promise of romans 8:28 that all thing will work for the good to me.

2009-09-09T16:53:00.000-07:00

Yeah its early in the morning, and i am blogging. Yeah recently i have a real desire for many many things. Well there is the usual for soccer and hanging out time. But there are some that i did not have for a very very long time, like the desire to read books, interesting ones of course, go for a lot of movies, most of them have been showing in cinemas for a while already. And now even the desire to play games.

One of the games would be FIFA 10, that will be releasing in early oct. Can't wait to get my hands on that and play. Awesome!!!! of course there is a whole lot of other games that i would like to play...but FIFA 10 is like on top of the list.!!!!!!

2009-09-09T01:35:00.000-07:00

Hiaz just slacked the whole day away again... planned to do alot of things but yet did not do.

Today's devo is awesome. prioritizing God's words that will bring blessings. It also reminded me abt what God spoke to me recently. That I shld start taking His words seriously. Even when sometimes when i don't feel like listening. Its like a boost to start on the journey with a great walk with God.

2009-09-07T10:50:00.000-07:00

been asked by many people to update my blog, well thats what i am doing now. hahaha

Well, today was a whole day of slacking and playing games ( computer games) with my brothers. its like the whole day of games, and i just didn't get tired. If i were to do this at Clementi, i will just doze off. well maybe its because of the company i had, no matter what i love it.

Just wanna say that God is really really good... although its not very good but still i will say abt it. For term 2, the worst semester i ever had in my whole life, everything came crashing down. Term 2 was like at the rock solid bottom...its like there is no way to go down anymore and yet, i'm still falling. Term 2 project was amazing, wonderful exciting but i just got off with the wrong foot and kept stumbling. and when i thought i was in for a straight Fs...welll only till yesterday i was still thinking i was in for a straight Fs. And before i checked my results, God just spoke to me, saying that He want to bring me out of the valley of the shadow of death. backt to the mountains where i belong. The head and not the tail, above and not beneath and ever soaring above the storm. then when i check my results, its was all passes. well i would prefer straight As ( its coming AMEN!!) but at least i did not fail at all from something which i deserve to fail. At least there is a sign of me coming out of the valley, yeah its God who leads me out of this and i want to give the credit to Him and Him alone.

Watching an exciting tennis match right now...sorry but i have to end here...will blog tmr promise!!!

2009-09-05T19:08:00.000-07:00

recently, i haven't been blogging much, and i really want to start again, for the glory of God. to talk abt how great God is and His love for me.
Recently have been slacking a lot. and yesterday at connect 09, it was totally awesome. Especially when pastor ben spoke abt loneliness, attention seeking are all hunger for God love. It really spoke to me as i recently have that hunger( well its attention seeking). well i guess thats how God operate, when u fall short in one area, He lift you up in that area with timely messages.

I just realise something amazing. I just can't have enough of the story of Jesus, especially reading it through the manga messiah. Its like when u flick to any page and start reading any of the story, it is always so interesting and amazing. Revelations always come even when it is like a 2-3 page story.

i think i will just stop here, time for breakfast!!!!!
Will come back and blog abt today's service ( it shall be awesome AMEN!)

2009-08-29T09:45:00.000-07:00

its been a long time since i touch this blog, haha, well i would just say i will try to update it more often but i cannot confirm i will coz there are a whole lot of things i wanna do this holiday.

Well, life so far have many ups and many down. well, i dun want to go into detail.

Just came back form a wonderful dinner, from royal plaza. Didn't know there is a high class restaurant there. and the price is like twice the price in marriott hotel. the food was awesome, if anyone wants to eat some good and willing to pay a bring sum, well this is the place...hahaha

i have nothing much to blog already....Goodnight!!!

2009-08-21T09:22:00.000-07:00

FREEDOM IS HERE!!!

haha, not like it just came, but i felt it today!!!! nv felt it for such a long time already. it is like a grand closing to my project after all the hard work and late nights... had a long sleep throughout the afternoon. really i just feel like it was a pad on the back when i submit my project...although i felt it wasn't that well done. haha well time to chill out and relax...see u guys tmr at study sem!!!!

2009-08-13T09:16:00.000-07:00

oh man... currently very worried abt my sch work...like everystep i take, i keep thinking abt my sch work, especially the models. gotta go complete it asap...hope by tmr afternoon it can be done.

looking back at the past few years, i felt things has really really change. some for better, some for worse. of course there are milestones that change my life totally. like the 'o' levels, going to poly, attending church, became regular in cg and many more.

and i really want to tackle those bad one, like i somehow lost that eagerness, that strong desire to want to do stuff, big or small, important or not, it seems to just stay in my heart but not expressed into actions. another thing is that i'm getting into deep thought way too much. not that is an act of emo-ing, but just that i have many things in my mind and i just do not know how to covert them into words. or sometimes i do not have the courage to say them out.

well i guess all things work for the good of those who love god ( which i really do) and those who are called according to his promises. just continue to flow together with Him and know that His plan is way better than any of my plans. I am his masterpiece and workmanship. i am not junk

2009-08-11T14:29:00.000-07:00

Its 530am, and still not sleeping. doing models and chatting. 3hrs more to my presentation. dunno what to wear but well i guess there will be something...

just felt like blogging something random, really now no feel to do work

2009-08-05T08:16:00.000-07:00

Well, all i can say now that my heart is relieved. after seeing hope in hopelessness. seeing the light in the darkness. seeing the giants being brought down one by one. A life with jesus is always ever so good.

Well life with jesus is also so ever exciting. having fresh new revelations right on the spot for devo group on the 12pm slot. it was the testing part that was a revelation. Like everything, we go thru testings. even truths of the bible went thru so many testings and they are part of our testimonies in our lives now. like every product in the industries, it must go thru testings. thru that testings we will than know the limits, but also know its strengths and know how far it can go. we go thru testings to come out of it stronger, taking it as a training, and blessings and testimonies are just results of testings. sometimes testings makes us feel bitter, but just keep ur eyes focus on Jesus and all things will work out well

Shalom and good night
Daryl Elliott

2009-08-04T08:05:00.000-07:00

omg....I 've got new revelations!!!!

Haha, the first one is:

Like the bible said, u are god's masterpiece, His workmanship. Yeah, you are His workmanship. His masterpiece.
so stop comparing yourself with others especially others as each one of us is His masterpiece. There is no masterpiece that are totally the same, some may have more similarities, but in the big picture, they are all different.

The second:

How could any of us ( lets make this personal [ ME!]) let God down by the things we do. we are not under the law. yes have things that we have to watch out for or we will have to face the consequences. but how could we ever let God down when we are not the one lifting God up...It is God we lift us up in His right hand with Christ, and never once has He let us down.

wow...amazing...cool...awesome
praise the Lord!!!!

2009-08-04T06:52:00.000-07:00

Today wasn't very fruitful, totally!!!

did only dossier when i have planned out a whole lot of things to do...its probably only 30% done so far.
well the day isn't over with 2hrs left.

i just felt that the cg have been super inactive in terms of meeting up as a cg for lunch or just fellowship together.
maybe i haven't been spending time with the cg the past week that made me felt this way. i just felt that i'm starting to drift away from the cg, like there are some many things i do not know abt them. oh well, i really want to fellowship but sch work are just piling up and its an impossible task to complete. well when somethings impossible jesus is there to make them possible. how?? i do not know.

Better not waste anymore time blogging and start doing my work

2009-07-23T08:26:00.000-07:00

I'm starting to feel abit bad, like i am not really updating as regular a people are coming to read my blog...i should start updating it again with even more random stuff.

recently have been really really really blessed...still have lots of work to do...if u wanna find out more, come ask me...

2009-07-15T18:52:00.000-07:00

yesterday devo group was wonderful, dunno why all of a sudden have so much to share. but oh welll at least someone gets bless.

just last night, i was like complaining to God abt all the mess there is in my life, my poor grades, the distance i felt between me and my family grow farther and farther away and some other personal stuff. as i prayed in tongues, i was crying as i really couldn't do anything abt it. i also want to hear God like in every step that i take, like every time i have a concept for my design, i want to ask god first, ask for His approval. If He approve, who would dare to reject.

But all that complaining can't really seem to end, but today's devo was so timely. It talks abt how all our groaning will reach to God's throne. and how we just need to pray in tongues to receive our miracles. So i now rejoice that all my miracles will be coming soon...haha can't wait any longer!!!!!

2009-07-14T04:55:00.000-07:00

Didn't had a good day today, feeling so restless, stress and everything just doesn't seem to go my way. Its like there is one evil day and many good days. but when that evil day come, its hell of a day.

Still have lots of work to do, thought i would have finished 1/5 of it today but was ask to do it in a different style so i am back to square one. well at least today is an evil day and not tmr when it is gonna be the first devo group. kinda looking forward to it, wonder how the respond will be like.

Currently facing a lot of personal problems, so if u see me emo-ing at times, pls dun disturb me...

2009-07-10T09:58:00.000-07:00

Am back blogging by popluar demand!!! haha not really la, but just a few asking me why nv update my blog...oh well.
going to sleep soon, but just wanna blog something random. throughout the whole day, what really spoke to me the most did not came from the sharing sessions we had during cg, but was during my trip home on cleo's dad truck.

Where her dad spoke about we live life with full of miracles, and they happen as often as we eat our meals. like for some, the dateline for the deposite for the israel trip has been extended, thats really a miracle, like ho most of us came out of camp changed, that is also a miracle. people has always see miracle as something really really big, like winning $5million on toto, and not the small things that makes us smile and happy. the things that have gone our way, the things that cause us to feel so relived and the things that we just praise god ( actually everything).

Yup thats all i got to say, hope to be back blogging tmr...currently back in my self-condeming mode...its suck but kinda diffcult to advoid it.

2009-07-06T08:01:00.000-07:00

Hi beloveds, just felt like sharing this with u guys especially for those who are still trusting god for the money to go to Israel.

Let me start by saying that, You have A BIG, POWERFUL, RICH, SUPERNATURAL GOD!!! Which u have found favor in. Yesterday during service, God just drop me this verse Matthew 7:7-8 ⁷"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. ⁸For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. For many of u all, i am sure u know about this verses and they are no stranger to u. but yet i always wonder why we can just ask and we will receive. why not we just get what we want even without receiving. It is because, God wants u to use your rights as a son of God, as a righteous person and as someone who is called by God " My Beloved".

The second thing is that, why when we ask we will receive even though it is not really a need but a want. Lets put it this way, imagine u have so much favor with Bill Gates, who earns $500 every second, that one day he came up to u and ask u what u want. U can even ask him for a private jet and it does not even hurt his flow of money. It probably only cost him 0.01% of all the wealth he has. But yet, we have favor with the God who created everything, who made Solomon the richest man in history, God who clove the lilies of the field way better than solomon in all his glory. How much more you, His beloved. What is $1000 to the God of the universe? how many seconds it will take God to earn $1000. when he has freely given His son to die in ur place, to take away the curses in ur life, and to bring a flood of blessings into ur life. So seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all things shall be add to u.

We also have to cast all our cares to God and let Him be in control. By Doing so, we will find the God kind of peace where we can hear God's voice very clearly. This is where we can follow God and let Him be in control of our lives.

One week may be very short, but God will still be able to bless u at the very last minute. so lets stand in faith and believe God for the money to pay for the whole trip and have more than enough to spend there.

2009-07-02T06:21:00.000-07:00

I know i should start updating my blog...but for the past few weeks, i just didn't have the feeling to blog. like there is no meaning to blog anymore. but well, blogging is like an online journal...where i share the daily life with anyone who reads it...and who knows, what i share may just bless someone.

today wasn't very fruitful, as i slept the whole morning due to sleeping late last night as i went to have supper with kumwai after service. then i only spent 2 hrs in sch before heading down to NLB for research on the "GURU" that i am supposed to copy.

I just do not know what to do now, facebook is kinda boring already, there is no other games there is to play. nothing interesting in ppls blogs. nothing new on youtube that is able to entertain my life for that moment. well, i guess i shall just go spent time with jesus...see ya

2009-06-23T10:31:00.000-07:00

Its 10 days and i have not update my blog. Many things happen during the past 10 days, was at HM camp, had many breakthroughs. came back and arrow on sat and service on sun. fell sick on monday and i just came back from servers meeting.

About HM camp, it was totally wonderful. being able to let go of my past that i could not do it for 15 years. built kingdom friendships and finally stopped looking at ppl with a judgment eye, but forgives them easily as no one is perfect. The camp has sort of fired me up to run with the gospel. Having that peace that i have never felt before, i somehow being able to hear God so clearly.

but as we all can say, ur spirit is so willing but the body is tired. its is like 10 days of under intensive teaching of the word. i just felt so refreshed but not as strong as i usually feel.maybe thats the reason i fell sick.

Lastly, i just wanna announce that this blog will be a blog that i will talk about Jesus, instead of my day to day life. yes my walk with Jesus but also a place where i just pray that whatever i blog about God here, it might just sow seeds and bring more souls to the kingdom of God.

For a start, the most basic but most important thing is that jesus died on the cross willingly for you and me so that we can lead an abundant life, and also to give us righteousness so that we can go to Him boldly to talk or for any request. Just wanna make this a very important point that JESUS' BLOOD HAS WASH AWAY ALL OUR SINS, PAST, PRESENT and FUTURE. Not like the blood of bulls and goats that only COVER our sins. see that there is a different in each offering. Jesus' blood washes clean our sins, but the blood of bulls and goats only cover. so we now can established ourselves in Christ as His blood always wash us of our sins, everytime we fall short, we know that there is therefore no condemnation as our sins has been punished on the cross.

2009-06-14T07:43:00.000-07:00

sorry for the lack of updates, was away for ALIVE! camp for the past 3 days. it was really fun and i've received more than what i asked for. also i had so much favor with pastor sam, the teachers and the children there.

My team is striker king!!! wooohhooooo, we are first!!!! haha, at first i thought that my team is all ready set up for victories. as we are the only group that is called king. there are masters and warriors around, but a king is above all of them.not to put down any other teams, but i just felt that my team was going to live up to our team name. but as i reached the camp and having meeting my team, i just felt so discouraged, as my team's children do not really bond well with each other, even after the ice-breaker games. also i felt that the other teachers are more outgoing than my group's.

Day 1, we started on the wrong note, we lost our first 2 games. that means we lost a huge sum of points. we drew twice and finally only won once. i felt the team started to be together, but still i think its too late. as all the other teams we like really bonded already. i kinda give my team a lot of encouragements although deep down inside me, i did not believe what i said to them. Then teacher Ronnie end the first day with the message of that Jesus will used the lost and the last to do great exploits. using the weak to confront the strong. i kinda not believe then.

Day2, things somehow flow the way we wanted it to be. we start to become very dominating in all the games, although we lost once and drew once. at least we won three of five of the games. but still that wasn't enough as we were trailing very far back in terms of points. but the turning point of everything was the finale game. a waterbomb war. we manage to trashed all the other teams which won us the first place. the team was of course very happy. i was shock, that a team like my which really did not start well could eventually becoming the winning team.

on the last day, nothing much was done but as we read all the little note that the children wrote for the teachers. i was totally shocked as i kinda of receive very good comments on me. I always thought that i was the worst teacher there is, i always thought i wasn't all out for the team. but yet everything that was written for me were total opposites of what i think of how i perform.

Also i did said that i have so much favor with the teachers there, i kinda find it a little weird at first as i do not know the teachers they and yet when the teachers approach me, they kinda know me inside out already. they are very caring too, felt like i have so many other mothers. one of them is pastor sam, she has been always caring for me, asking me whether i have enough food, whether i need more rest, whether i am ok with handling the children and many other things. i just felt so loved there and God became so real in the camp.

oh no, spent to much time blogging, gotta go wash my shirts and pack for HM camp. will be back on friday to share what happen in the camp!!!!

2009-06-10T10:55:00.000-07:00

What a day, spending the last 3 days with my grandmother, can't really bear to leave her coz she kinda lonely with only my step sister to see only during the evenings. But i was reminded that i am a blessing go somewhere to happen. i didn't know that my grandma haven't been going to church since the death of her sis. and just on the first day i was spending time with her, she just said that she felt like going to church this coming sunday. i was, sort of very happy for her, as she can start having a close relationship with god again and also start having a good chat with her church friends. just as i was about to leave her house, she cooked red bean soup with sweet potato. it is kinda the best desert i would ever eat, not really for outside desert, but if she cooks it, its the best.

service was awesome today. what spoke to me the most was not the preaching part but the P&W and the testimonies. it was so awesome. The P&W is the part where they sing "only believe", that was the part that really touched my heart coz our part as human is just believe and trust in god. and the testimonies, it just provokes me telling me when it is my turn to share a wonderfully touching testimony with the church. maybe things like " became a millionaire overnight by the grace of god" or " given a one year sponsorship for nike, addias, apple, microsoft and many other designer brand products." hahah that will be the day i would treat the whole cg to lunch or something at somewhere other than food courts and fast food resturant.

Reached home at about 1pm.( due to some reasons) and started packing for alive camp stuff. coz tmr will be the day that i will leave my hse early for pasir ris to spend time with my bros and presuade my 7-year-old bro to go for mk camp in sept. of course get the plants vs zombie game from josh wong ( which is rated 9.5/10)

ok its time to sleep...fellow readers, rest well too. health is very important!!!

2009-06-09T08:03:00.000-07:00

lol, i just created twitter. its nothing much actually, just people being more open to share more often on what they are feeling, doing or thinking.
Yup i am enjoying myself at my grandma's hse. miss the east so much that much have changed. although good food are still there, they have become a little more expensive.

Camp is really really near. its like this friday!!! Of course i do have camp expectation even though the camp is not planned for me. but as a server, i am sure i also can receive something from the camp. My expectation for the ALIVE! camp is that i am able to reach out to children easily and to be a good mentor to the children.. all these i am expecting the camp to help me achieve that.

Below are yesterday guitar session at my house...

2009-06-09T02:14:00.000-07:00

just felt like giving this game a review of it. it is fun, realistic although it is supposed to be at 2024, most of the weapon are kind of the weapons armies are using it now. I would say its much better than halo. it is able to used alot of vehicles for trucks to tanks to helicopter to fighter jet. its has abit of halo like when u get hit or something, all u need it is to just stay away and rest for a while.
it would give it 7/10 stars

2009-06-07T21:09:00.000-07:00

shall blog something b4 i go to clementi to learn how to play a guitar....finally i get the chance to learn the guitar seriously.

for the past 2 days, its been wonderfully wonderful. everywhere i go, God kept telling me not to disqualify myself when He has already qualify me 2000years ago. i felt sort of like lots of self-condemnation for the past few days, but my God so love me that he send people to remind me that no matter how i disqualify myself, it can never erase the fact that god has qualify me. Like what pastor said, when God say so, no one will say no.

will blog abit more tonight...

2009-06-06T18:39:00.000-07:00

Hillsong United concert on the 25th july...people who wants to go pls tell me. it will be at max pavilion. Concert tickets cost only $5. there is also a workshop in the afternoon. for the workshop and concert, tickets are selling at $10. Pastor judah smith will be the guest speaker.

for the past few days, have not been updating my blog due to being very busy with lots of stuff, especially yesterday. rehearsal in the morning, meeting half and hour after the rehearsal. went to serve with my fellow IM guys. camp briefing, camp servers briefing. debrief for IM. Briefing on IM logistic. woah!! thats so much i have been doing yesterday. yup but it was fun.

Training on friday was okok. tough, especially at the last station. body is still abit aching right now.

seriously, i can't wait for camp to come. both ALIVE! camp and arrow camp. Both i have different expectations, but a common goal, TO SERVE THE LORD!!! I will leave me writing my expectations for both camp on another day...

2009-06-04T19:08:00.000-07:00

yesterday night praise and worship for the IM teams was wonderful. As i have been attacked by the devil about being utterly useless, and there is no place for me to shine in this world, God just spoke through yoshie last night that, all we got to do is just believe and trust in Him.

During the praise and worship, i got a wonderful revelation. in a " BGR" when the guy hold the girl's hand, it is the guy's right hand, power, strength that holds the girl's left, weak, hand. its so wonderful, its like a picture of us with christ, with Him holding our left hand covering up all our weaknesses and leading us with His strength and power to confront the strong and mighty( yesterday devo).

word of the day: let christ be the centre of ur everyday life!!

2009-06-03T21:07:00.000-07:00

WOOOHOOO, roger federer is one step closer to his first french grand slam title. played a wonderful match last night. GOGOG roger!!!

yesterday was a total boring day, haiz, hope today will be much better with productions and praise and worship night. i hope it will all be super wonderful!!!

signing off Daryl

2009-06-02T22:19:00.000-07:00

i know i am not supposed to blog right now, but its damm boring. in my gems class only half the class came today. lecture is also so boring.the lecturer is like talking to himself, omg. used to like him coz he engage me into the class.

Damm happy today, finally earn $0.20 by blogging. not bad eh. haha lol. pls come back more often to view my blog. will update as often as possible

2009-06-02T08:33:00.000-07:00

I dun know u guys can read it or not, but this is full of spelling error. its damm funny. well ppl make mistakes sometimes. sometimes only some know, sometimes the whole world knows.

2009-06-01T19:55:00.000-07:00

Haiz, crit suck today. totally blew it all away. think i'm gonna fail this term. oh well, whats done is done. just got to look towards the near future.

Yesterday went for a so called "job interview". decided not to join it coz its a MLM company. although we do not put any investement, and the pay sounds nice. the problem is that pay day depends on how much i seel their product. which is ion water. which is so called better for our body and maybe in the long run coz us to live longer. well the competition in this industry isn't very big but still not alot of singaporeans will buy it coz newater is strongly supported by government and it can be found in taps all around singapore.

oh well, shall end here. gonna upload pics tonight

2009-05-31T08:00:00.001-07:00

For the past few weeks, have been feeling very down. it sort of worsen this few days. like as if life has no more meaning to it ( relax, i not going to kill myself). But i just think that this spiritual warfare is not going to end anytime soon. what i am thinking now, it might take years.

today and yesterday has been very tiring, whole day at noel( yesterday) and whole day at suntec( today). joking and acting happy has been easy. but when the tire hit the road( when i'm alone) its a total different story. i know i sound emo, but i just can't help but saying it all out.

As most of the time, i'm alone at home, i am sort of very open to this kind of attacks. and i do not really know how to defend it. people have adviced me, but like everything, its easier said than done. haiz won't want to talk about it anymore. the more i talk, the more emo i feel

2009-05-29T05:03:00.000-07:00

yeah...haha now i can really say " IT IS FINISHED!!". but this time, there isn't the same feeling as last year's project.

I just felt really relived that submit my work, but felt it could have been better as i did not really finish my model. its not totally complete, not finished!!! but today's devotional was really for me. not me actually but my project. My project is under his wings and also covered in his blood.

I don't know how many times people has ask me to relax and not stress about it. but yet i did not take the advice and carry on getting worried and stressed up about my project. the more worried i am, or the more stressed up i am, the least i could do anything. i did lots of stuff, but most of them turn out to be rubbish when i am clam and settled down. Learnt this lesson of not to worry the hard way, but i'm sure God will deliver me from any mistakes that i made.

Watch "the reaping" on HBO after submission. its about this christian missionary who have fallen from grace because of the death of her husband and child during the mission trip. the whole show is about plagues happening in a small town after a boy who was thought to be killed by a girl who turn the whole river in to blood. sounds familiar? the same plagues happen when Moses was in Egypt. It rain frogs, food rot with maggots and flies while it was cooking. cows dying out of no reasons. The girl who turn the river into blood was mistaken as the devil and the whole town was out to kill her. But the movie ended in the most predictable way, the girl is actually an angel, and the person who work with the main character is the devil himself. fire came down from heaven and consume the whole town except the main character. but it ended like there is a 2nd part to the movie. as said like one of the cursed, (oh man i do not know) but it ended with the main character being pregnant with the devil. interesting show but too much stuff which only gives a brief explanation. i would give it a 5/10 rating.

It is finished!!!

2009-05-28T16:37:00.000-07:00

Its 730 am and my project is not finished yet. but i just proclaiming that it is finished as it will be finished. did not do much throughout the night as i was very tired. submission is 3hr away. better rush them now. will blog about my days experience later today. Time to do my work

Barca Barca!!!!

2009-05-27T19:38:00.000-07:00

Yeah yeah. Glory GLory to barcelona. winning the champion league in style. 2-0 . haha messi and eto is always trusted to score goals. winning the treble, first spanish club to do it. and the manger is the youngest manger to win the champion league. It was an exciting match, but like sir alex ferguson said, the better team won!!!

Will come back to update the more about the match later

2009-05-27T10:13:00.000-07:00

haiz, too many things to do, too little time to do them all. will try to blog at least one per day till this sat. But today was a totally great day. wonderful service. the part that really caught me was when jesus said " Don't be afraid, just believe". I was just so awe, dunno i really need someone to really say that but then God just spoke it to me. i felt so loved by God.

On the way home, had a great laugh at an ad that has super bad english. eg washing machine becomes washing masin. haha lol. will try to post the pic tmr or something.

Ok gonna sign off now. doing my work

2009-05-26T20:29:00.000-07:00

Just finish sch today, totally boring. Had a mock up test where everyone did it in the wrong format. And always the short lecture for intech. Still have lots of work to do, but am trusting God that all will be well and go for service.

Yesterday was a super tough training session with clinton, gab and kumwai. started to shiver at the half way point. but then stop coz my whole body went numb and felt ike my i was gonna die. ended at 10 and had super late dinner( haha supposed to be called supper) at about 1145. slept when i have to do my work. sian

will promise to upload some of my model pics tmr. take care and God bless.