For the past few weeks, have been feeling very down. it sort of worsen this few days. like as if life has no more meaning to it ( relax, i not going to kill myself). But i just think that this spiritual warfare is not going to end anytime soon. what i am thinking now, it might take years.

today and yesterday has been very tiring, whole day at noel( yesterday) and whole day at suntec( today). joking and acting happy has been easy. but when the tire hit the road( when i'm alone) its a total different story. i know i sound emo, but i just can't help but saying it all out.

As most of the time, i'm alone at home, i am sort of very open to this kind of attacks. and i do not really know how to defend it. people have adviced me, but like everything, its easier said than done. haiz won't want to talk about it anymore. the more i talk, the more emo i feel